Roger Bourland, why are you doing this?

January 29, 2006

In my imagination as well as in recent emails, I have been asked:

“WHY are you writing this book?”

“This will not further your career, and you will likely lose even more respect from your colleagues (contemporary classical composers).”
[Tough shit.]

Are you having a mid-life crisis?
[NO! a mid-life exhuberance!]

Have you dried up as a composer?
[Au contraire, I’m writing the best music of my life!]

But Roger, there are lots of other great songwriters, why not write about them?
[I don’t want to; maybe some other day, but for now, I love Rufus Wainwright’s music and want to write about his songs.]

In my next group of postings, I will be looking inside to ask myself why I really am doing this, and in the process, confess to my small group of readers some recent thoughts and dreams that may or may not make it in the book. You may or may not find these confessions of interest. For those wishing to continue learning about Rufus analyses or information, take a few days off while I ruminate and look inward. I do have a section in the book about my background and why I have chosen to take on this project at this point in my life. What will follow are sketches for that chapter. Thank you for your indulgence.

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Valkyrie January 29, 2006 at 8:26 am

I don’t know why it seems to be human nature to pick at each other, to cause someone with vision to have a doubt, to make them question their motives or even the inspiration that got them started in the first place.

Maybe it’s jealousy, possibly it’s frustration at not having the same drive, perhaps it’s even ignorance.

In any event, please do not be swayed by those with the blinders on their eyes and the cold stones in their hearts.

Your true friends will encourage you and they will pull for you to succeed.

Rosa January 29, 2006 at 12:37 pm

Human nature is a funny thing – what appeals to the best in us can be God’s will – maybe – or just a vision of our own that we cherish. To bring that vision to the world could be a great gift, but ultimately questioning your own motives is part of the creative process. Beethoven certainly did!

Rhapsody January 29, 2006 at 6:17 pm

Most of us live our lives as seekers. We seek for truth, for beauty, for a sense of contentment and harmony in the soul. Every seeker follows a unique path; wavering from that path causes a disharmony or cacophony in the soul that leads to an inability to seek.

Disregard those “notes” in your life that interrupt the harmony you have from within. Follow your own path, even if the destination is not readily apparent.

pucks_soul February 7, 2006 at 10:20 pm

I have been trying to fomulate this for a while now but I am not sure how to explain it. I have only recently been under the influence of Rufus. Since beginning on this quest to find all things Rufusonian I have begun to use his influence to stretch my limited knowledge base. First I read about the Bouvier-Beale’s from Grey Gardens (I have the video on hold at the library, it has been checked out since looking into it). I devoured Thomas Mann’s Death in Venice (Heim’s translation). I began going to the library almost daily checking out singer/songwriters so that I could broaden my knowledge but also compare and contrast them with Rufus’ writing/composition style…I am not musically inclined I only know what I like or dislike. This week I checked out Gluck’s Orfeo ed Eurydice from the Lyric Opera’s commentaries series partly because the Lyric is doing this work later this month and David Daniels is singing Orfeo (I think that he and Rufus would be a dynamite couple) and because I have never listened to opera before. Today it was Vivaldi’s Bajazet 2005 Europa Gallante CD/DVD with David Daniels, I needed to hear what a counter-tenor sounded like. When I first signed up for this board on Jan. 1 of this year I said that I did not think I would ever be the same after hearing Rufus’ music, I did not know how true that statement was. BTW I checked out four more opera’s in the Lyric commentary series tonight, I am a junkie. Did I say I was contemplating making a brooch for Rufus, god help me, lol…Anyway I hope there is room in your blog/book for the way that people are inspired not only by the music but by the man and how the mythologies/iconography he puts into his music makes some of us hungry to know more about it. I had to read up on the Lady of Shallot for pete’s sake, where will it end, lol
Thanks for doing this project and bully to your colleagues who would undermine you, they are just jealous of your dedication to a subject that probably scares the bajeezus out of them. IMHO.

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